Fear. A big, ugly, heavy fear is a roadblock to Doing what our hearts' desires. To do what we want and live our lives. This fear is conceived in the head. The fear of failure and fruitless labour. The fear of not meeting up to anything. The fear of ridicule and blame when things go wrong. Guess what, things can always go wrong and so what?! And so what? At least you tried, at least you did something. There should be no place for blame. This is not a contest to who has the biggest faults and stumbles of all. Life is about trying, going out there and doing what we can despite of not knowing what lies ahead.
My hope is to not be held down by my fears. I have lots of them and I feel their weights. I am only me trying my best, not to drown out my inside voice of yearning, of hope, of believing that this life is worth living, that there is a purpose to all of this and how you live your life now will someday shape into something that serves that grand purpose. My understanding is limited. Help me Lord, to keep this hope and follow your ways.
Amen.
